Someone Switched the Lights Back On

A few weeks ago I rambled on about swordfish and ospreys http://thebookofsilence.blogspot.com/2010/08/swordfish-and-ospreys.html 

In the ramble I talked about swordfish diving deep to escape predators, well the last few weeks have taken me deep and my predator has been snapping at my fins (and worse), but I am glad to say that I am back at the surface and jumping into the light.

In the last few weeks I have really met the disease head on at every level, physical, mental, emotional and spritual and it has not been easy.  It has been a time for introversion and pulling myself up by my boot straps, obviously with the help of loved ones.  At times it is just case of "pull yourself" together, but there have been many different strands to getting through it.

Of course, it wasn't a conscious choice that took me there though perhaps the earlier piece gives an indication that I had a feeling for where I was heading .

The good news is that I have come through that time with a clearer head, a clearer focus and am feeling more relaxed about the big picture.

The next few weeks will not be easy but the fact that I feel concerned only with the end result and have met my fair share of "demons" and shaken them off makes me feel so much stronger.

Here's to calmer waters. I say that at least on a mental level because the kids arrive back from North Wales today.  I am really looking forward to seeing them, but I shan't be looking forward to any more peace and quiet, that's for sure!