First off, a happy birthday to Lindylu. I hope that you have a good one.
Yesterday's conversation with the head of radiotherapy changed a lot of things.
The most important was realising that this isn't a sprint through therapy over the next five weeks, rather it is a gradual process until I am reassessed in seventeen weeks time.
It might seem odd that I didn't already know this but there is a gap between what information you are given, which questions you think of asking and what the facts are. I have accepted long ago that one has to be slightly relaxed and that the moment will present itself when information is ready to be taken on board. Following this blog for any period of time makes it obvious that you have to be adaptable in this situation as it constantly changes, whether through design or through perception.
The new time frame means that it is time for me to keep doing the things that I am doing well and improve on the others and be grateful that the process has longer to work.
Someone said to me today that it must be easier said than done to remain relaxed in these circumstances but the truth is that you become relaxed in any situation given time. The same can be said about the gambler in a casino. The first time that you gamble each bet is accompanied by an adrenaline rush and there is less cold logic but, as you become more proficient a cooler head takes over.
One of the things that I will be putting in place is some regular appointments with the Mad Canadian oesteopath. I have learned that he is not back until next week but when he returns I will use the diversity of his skills as an added tool in my healing box.
It interests me that many people seek out alternative therapies when the end of their journey with cancer has already been marked out, whereas I view complementary therapies as exactly that i.e. complementary to the mainstream approach. The Mad Canadian has a few of the more esoteric healing arts up his sleeve and they will complement not only my treatment but the other things that I am doing for myself.
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