The Right Balance

So, I've got through the first few days of chemotherapy and am also a few days into my radiotherapy treatment.

It is time to lift the struggle and get focused on what is really important.

This course of treatment is designed as another throw of dice in getting me into operation and cure and is likely to be the last from that perspective.  The important thing is to do my utmost to make it work.

It is impossible to know exactly what is the best way to approach things, but there has to be a sensible balance.

Radiotherapy everyday rules out some of the potential for commuting to and from work and work will have to take a lighter load anyway.  Working has been useful in giving a focus away from the other issues and it has more often than not still been priority number one in the same way as it is for everyone in a normal situation.  However, that is not sustainable over the next month.  It is still a factor in the mix and discussions over my level are input have already started.

There is no opportunity to create some kind of sterile, restful healing environment.  Try and do that with two young and enthusiastic and happy children who will be returning from South Wales today.  What is important is to create an environment where I can be happy, whilst living a normal life.

It would be good to get out for more walks in the park, strolls by the river and just generally keeping the spirit high whilst also getting a good easy level of exercise.

What I intend to do from a pyschological perspective is to believe that I can still make a big difference to the process.  The cancer will do its own thing in conjunction with the treatment.  I cannot control that, but I can put myself in the best frame of mind and the best condition to create an arena for the treatment to work in and that is exactly what I intend to do.