The Wider Plan Revisited

A while ago I said that I had a wider plan to help maintain my quality and quantity of life.  I have revisited this topic as the comments of "Triple Witcher" in a another post made me feel that it was worth revisiting.

Sometimes though things are easier said than done.

In order to put such a plan into action the basics have to be right and they haven't been.  My situation has been very volatile.  Physically, I haven't been able to hold food down and scientifically there is hard evidence from CT scans that the disease is really behaving like a dog with a bone and is ratcheting up its activity.

Kitten and I have been working very hard to counteract these problems whether by resting, by consulting with the various teams of medics at my disposal or just working hard to keep my spirits up.

The set backs that I have had do not mean that I will not be pursuing my original thoughts though.

I am in conversation with the hospital as to whether we can still go ahead with trial drug.

I am also arranging to see a spiritual healer of some repute.  I know that this is an evocative subject but I will mention once again that I am not expecting miracles, rather I am looking to enable as much positivity in myself as possible and to focus myself on the body's constant self-healing process.  The healer I will be seeing has been involved with the scientific community (I can remember even fifteen years ago him performing laboratory controlled experiments with cancer cells in the States).   The main purpose of spiritual healing at this stage of the disease is to find one's centre.  To find peace.

There are many other things in my focus and these are in ensuring that my family is well set up.  Regardless of how long I am able to derive pleasure from the joy that is life, I have to talk with Kitten about what happens after it for the family and particularly the children.  These conversations are in many ways no different to the conversations that any husband and wife would have but under the normal assumption that both parties would be present.  Kitten is very keen for me to give as much input to my family's upbringing as possible and there is much pleasure to be had in us discussing our views, which are not always the same!

In a financial sense I am also changing my focus from Kitten being provided for to how to plan to use, protect and focus that provision.  This is important, especially with the family still being in its infancy.