Difficult Times

The last few days have been very difficult.

The main problem has been the inability to keep food down.  My number one suspect for this is the progression of the cancer into the liver.

It is a double whammy really.  On the one hand I have the primary cancer of the oesophagus,which stops food going down.  We have circumvented that problem by putting a stent in but now the cancer in the liver means that the food is rejected when it gets into the system.

So, very little nutrition in my over the last few days I had to call time on the idea of having the trial drug today.  There is no way that I would have got through the administration of intravenous drugs.

Thoughts have turned to why I am so sick and the answers came when talking to the doctor at the Marsden.  As suspected, the disease is progressing in the liver and is described as "very aggressive".  So much so that thinking in terms of long months may prove to be ambitious in itself.  I hope that doesn't prove to be the case, but  it is quality time that is important and I am not even getting any of that at the moment.

The first gambit from here is a pump method of delivering anti-sickness drugs with the system being under the skin.  That is being looked into tomorrow.

I wish that I had better news to deliver at this festive time, but I don't.