Platform to Fight From

If you have been following the blog over the last couple of weeks you will have seen that I Kitten and I have been struggling to get things onto an even keel.  We have been trying to establish a platform from which we can fight from.

I am pleased to say that it looks like we are pretty much there.

I was at the GP's this morning and we have now got the balance of drugs about right.  That helps enormously in how I feel during the day.  Just over a week ago I was propped up in bed unable to do anything whereas now I am moving towards a semi-solid diet, I am doing some work during the day an am moving on to more aggressive types of treatment.  The only blip I had was on Saturday when I ended up back in bed for much of the day, but I am putting that down to the over-exhuberance of the previous days;  a gentle reminder from the disease about just how volatile and powerful it is.

The kids are on-board and, although upset, are coping well.  I am trying to encourage them that if they are going to tell people anything then to say that daddy isn't going to get better from the cancer rather than "daddy is going to die".  After all, we are all going to die!

From this place I can think about fighting my own corner.  There will be good times and there will be bad times but it is my firm intention to enjoy the good times whilst they are here and to do what I can to encourage their stay.

I also hope that I will be forgiven for not being wildly optimistic whilst in such a medically deficient position.   I remain optimistic that I can do my best to make the situation work for me, but I feel that it is equally important not waste the quality time I have at my disposal now.  That is why Kitten and I will be making plans to maximise the fun our little family can have sooner rather than later.