This is the story about my journey into and, hopefully, through cancer of the oesophagus.
There are number of reasons for me wishing to share my experience; some of which are selfish, some of which I would like to think are altruistic.
The blog is intended to be a frank account and, whilst I hope it is accessible and useful beyond my immediate circle of family and friends, it will be written in a style that is suitable for open-minded adults.
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Wednesday, 23 February 2011
Wednesday 23rd February 2011
It is with deepest sorrow that I write to say that my darling Swordfish passed away this morning.
It was peaceful and I was with him all night.
I will write on the blog again in a few days time.
Your strength throughout this ordeal has been an inspiration. How ever hard it must be I feel you are and will remain a true source of inspiration for many including your closest loved ones.
So sorry to hear. I have been following your ordeal for a while. This blog has been inspirational and is a credit to both of you. Best wished to you and your famil Michael (from the BARC BB
Kitten, our thoughts are with you and the children. Just gone to another room so he has.
I wish for you the opportunity to grieve and the strength to move on in your own way in the fullness of time. The last thing we get to do on this earth is to have a good end - and I know how it is to watch somebody pass. Respect and strength to you. You and the bairns will be in my prayers. Jaytour...Barc board
It's pointless to even try construct words which could do justice to the man I came to know so well, but important to also register my mark of respect on this sad day.
Swordfish, the dear man is at peace now,he fought a good fight, God rest his soul. I pray that God will be especially close to you Kitten, the children, his mum and dad and all his family and friends. I never knew him, but he became part of the daily life, I will never forget his strength of character, he earned his respect. Of course Kitten you must be so sad, but my goodness no wife could have done more. Your love for each other shone through this blog, it was immeasureable. Respectfully, God bless you and yours. MA
rumps is and will always be an inspiration to me on how to live life. his strength of character, will, humour and outlook on life defined him to be the great man that he is. am very sorry to hear the sad news, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Rumps was a great guy. We will miss him even though many of us never met him in person. Our thoughts are with you and the whole family at this most difficult time.
Yes, heartbreaking indeed - sometimes it is harder for those around the disease.....I wish you all the strength in the world - and would like to add that in my experience there will always surface some positives from these sorts of tragedies in time - you just wait and see.
Goodbye Swordfish This is such a sad moment, I never met any of you, but I am filled with immense admiration and respect for you both. I feel so sad its the post I have been dreading. Swordfish is at peace now and he could not have had anymore love and support than you have given him. You must be totally heartbroken. Its the toughest thing to face up to isnt it. Please take care of yourself, and now your children will need you more than ever. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Once more Goodbye Swordfish.
sad to hear kitten, thoughts are with you and the children. he is at peace now in no pain and torment, RIP rumps you will be missed by many. it is a painful time for you all now, but your love will get you through this god bless smurf1955 from the barc board
Kitten, I think you've been so brave, and I know how hard it will be for you having to carry on being strong for the little ones. I hope you can find some comfort in all the warmth and affection that so many of us felt for all of you through knowing Swordfish on the barc BB. You and the children must be so proud of him.
No words can express my deep deep sadness for you and the Children. I am sitting here lost for words darling, my heart absolutely breaks for you guys. I have so many fun memories of your gorgeous hubbie, who was always the life and soul of any night out with his stories and tales. I am devastated for you, you two were soulmates and he loved you so so so enoromously much...you were and are his world. Sending a huge hug to you Swordfish and all the love to you and the Children Kitten. All my love in the world Kirsty xxxxx
How Green his valley was then This greatly admired and loved man Who once breathed fiery passion for life Until the day his vigour was spent And natures mighty reign wept Extinguishing his blistering flame And enveloped with peace all of his pain..... How Green his valley is now Elixir flowing through his veins Paradise now his destination Heavenly tenderness his for eternity
lost for words. even though the end was apparent, its still a shock when it comes. thinking of you and yours at this difficult time. He'll be in a better place now. much love and respect.
What can I say. You are a very strong, brave woman and you have been a huge support to him throughout this past year. An inspiration to everyone. I cannot express how sad I am for you and the children and for his whole family. I truly wish I could have met him - he made you so happy. You and your children are in my thoughts. Condolences Chris, Ian and family xxxxx
A very sad post - Rumps was a truly inspirational character, a man I have grown to deeply respect even though we had not met physically. My upmost respect to you also kitten, in spite of much adversity you have kept it all together. Continue to be strong for the kids. You are all very much in my thoughts.
So sorry to hear that Rumps has passed away. I can't tell you how much he made a difference to me on the Barc bb and inspired me through this blog.
The fact that he so touched the lives of many people is testament to his character, there are few who so effortlessly command such respect and admiration.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones at this time.
I will miss you more than words can say and the pain of you not being here is going to hurt for a long time but I know you will be watching over your loved ones and I will see you again on the space terrace of heaven.
Sad news indeed,maybe more of us can be inspired by this mans integrity and ability to deal with situations head on in a dignified manner.I never met rumps but wish I had. I dont really have the words to do the man justice.
Oh Kitten I'm so very sorry he tried so hard to stay with you and his family. It all seems so cruel and so wasteful to take someone who had so much more to offer. Whoever said life isn't fair couldn't have said a truer word. Although I, like many others here only knew him via the BB his personality leached out without him knowing it and we all saw this fair, clever man who always had time to explain the point he was making. Through his writing of this blog I saw yet another side of him, a graceful, sensitive man and oh how he loved you all. Never ever forget that Kitten I will shed many a tear for you tonight Sleep well Rumps Changeling xx
Rumps and family Was thinking of you today during a coastal walk. An inspiration and thank you all so much for sharing this journey. May the wind always be on your back and the sun on your face and may the winds of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars.
Reading through this blog and seeing all the heartfelt comments from people who had never met Swordfish before made me very lucky to have known him. To those of us who did know him, we were all touched in our own way by his charisma. Kitten, you and the kids are in my thoughts and we will always be there for you all.
I'm going to miss you Monks, I'm going to miss all the hilarious banter we had, the great nights out until silly o'clock in the morning and then me having to explain to Kitten it was my fault for keeping you out!
I will rave on in your memory, I can imagine you're up there on a cloud right now doing your Wonder Woman dance whilst waiting to get on the decks to drop the last tune of the night by Degrees of Motion..."Shine on, let the light of your love grow stronger. You've got to shine on, You're the sun in my heart, A flame in the dark, So let the light of love shine on"
Those lyrics say it all about you...this is not goodbye, it's a see you later mate, bless.
Rumps and family Was thinking of you today during a coastal walk. An inspiration and thank you all so much for sharing this journey. May the wind always be on your back and the sun on your face and may the winds of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars.
Kitten I am very sad to read this post. My deepest sympathy, love and thoughts to you, Boogle, Hufty and your extended family. You and Swordfish have been an inspriation to us. You should have our number on the famiy sheet that was distributed at the beginning of the season. Please don't hesitate to call if there is anything I can do. Love J, R, W, M (aka Speedy) WPFC U7's xxxx
My sincere condolences to you and your children. Rumps was clearly a determined, upbeat and strong gentleman. I too have two young children and can not imagine what you are going through. You are no doubt very proud of the courage and strength Rumps has shown, it puts many to shame. It has made me think long and hard in recent times about my own priorities, it's easy to get them so wrong and forget what really matters.
Stay strong and Rumps memory will live on. My deepest sympathy to your family and friends.
Kitten, I don't know what to say. I am so sorry I wish I had got to know Swordfish better and had known him for longer. What I do know is that during our saturday morning chats when our boys played football i have never enjoyed myself more. We would discuss many subjects.We rarely agreed BUT the verbal jousting was great fun. He would end the football session by saying what the family would be doing over the weekend.He loved you and the kids so much...and he knew how much you loved him. He will be sorely missed but never forgotten.He will be remembered with a smile or a laugh. How special is that? He and you have many friends as well as family who will help you to find strength in any way they can. Love Mark and family xo
Hi Kitten Just wanted to add this quick note, I'm sure you've thought about it already but don't ever lose this blog will you (I say this as a total non techie who doesn't know how these things work). In later years the children may want to read it and I think that if they do they will be so proud of their dad. This blog gives an amazing insight of Swordfishes strength of character, his grace in the face of overwhelming odds and his love for his family. I think they will also be proud that the man they have the privilege to call Dad has moved so many people and made them re examine what in life the really important things are. I have said this as I struggle to convey to my sister's children now they are older how wonderful she was and how I wish I had something like this to show them Changeling x
Farewell my old friend and thank you for touching my life. The world is a poorer place, although many more lives will now be touched by yours. Our deepest sympathies go to Kitten and the Swordfish clan. We are here if you need anything. With Love From Ibanez & Family
I was very fortunate enough to have known Swordfish for a couple of years a while ago before I moved away, not very well, but who could ever forget the man who had a personality larger than life, was so entertaining and was an inspiration as far as living life to the full and maximizing fun was concerned. I feel heartbroken for Kitten and the children as your sense of loss must be unbearable. I wish you all the strength and courage in the world to get through the next stage of life knowing that Swordfish is watching over you and that you will all see each other again.
Goodbye Swordfish, its been a pleasure to be friends with you these past ten years working together. I've long admired your willingness to tackle things head on, to voice your opinion, to always try to do what was right. Of course we once sat opposite each other and the opinions (about just about anything) flowed back and forth across the desks. What a great time mate, we put several worlds to rights didn't we? I miss your insight and wisdom at work already but most of all I miss the jokes, the silliness, and laughter. So many memories and little stories that will always bring a smile to me. Kitten, my thoughts are with you. My deepest sympathy to you, the children and all the family. God bless. Love Sam The Eagle x
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Sad to have reached this point
Sympathies to all family & friends
http://thebookofsilence.blogspot.com/
"O" End of iii Barc Post
I just happened to be the first to report of Rumps departure to a better place on the iii Bulletin Board. I do not deserve all the "up" flags (110) that my post produced and is still producing, all listed above. They were not aimed at me and so I pass them on to their rightful owner - Rumps hopefully to show some of the strenght of feeling towards him on the iii boards.
The world is a far better place for having Rumps (Swordfish)'s presence and his footprint will remain on this Earth for very many years to come via the inspiration and strength of character that he has passed on to others that he has touched throughout his life. I regret that I have never met nor spoken to Rumps but I, like many others, feel that we knew him well through the style of his posts and, lately, this blog.
RIP Rumps
Strength to those closest to him - He will certainly be missed.
I cannot think of words to express how Rumps had such a good influence and was one of the most respected person on the Barc bb and how he will be missed by many.
Rest in peace Rumps. Tony (BlueTrin on the Barc bb)
What words can do justice on such a very sad occasion, I'm sure I don't know. Other than, first & foremost my thoughts are with Rumps, his dear family & friends.
For the rest: like many others on iii BBs, I've learned a lot about trading, & much more besides from the great man, I know I'll never forget him. He was the very best. I told him so even before the cancer was known, because I meant it.
So as I thanked him before (not that it's any consolation now), I thank him one last time. You'll always have my deep & heartfelt respect, Rumps. Truly a top man! May you RIP!
Kitten I only knew Rumps/Swordfish as a contributor of wisdom, humour, peace and understanding on the iii bulletin boards. More recently, I have been drawn to this blog for the immense humility and courage which you have both shown. You have shouldered a heavy burden, and it won't get any lighter any time soon. Be sure to let friends and family support you in whatever small ways they can, and give yourself and the kids the space you need to grieve, to cherish, and to love the marvellous man you have lost today. Deepest sympathies to you Mark (Jazz Club, iii)
I never knew that side of you Rumps, but having read Super Frank's message and being a 90's groover myself I certainly wish I had. Some old tunes are being played tonight!
Be assured that your light will shine on; even for people like me who never met you in person but were fortunate enough to have known you in the cybershere.
With your stength, courage and honesty you've demonstrated just how bright a light you always will be for those blessed to have known you. Your integrity is truly an example to us all.
May your spirit be at peace.
Kitten, my heart goes out to you, Boogle and Huffty. Your Swordfish was a very special man (evinced by all the tributes in this blog) and your loss must be so profound. I wish the three of you and all who loved him the strength, resilience and fortitude to cope as well as you can at this most incredibly sad time.
May you be comforted by knowing that the thoughts of so many are with you.
I never got to know you Rumps but found you via the iii Barclays forum and it is clear you were very well thought of. I was diagnosed with a Lymphoma some 6 years ago at the age of 32 and so I can imagine a part of the journey and the many things that go through your head during this awful time. All I can say is that I am sorry I didn't get to chat with you, and I wish all of your family the best in dealing with your sad loss. RIP Alex
Near shady wall a rose once grew Budded and blossomed in God’s free light, Watered and fed by morning dew, Shedding its sweetness day and night.
As it grew and blossomed fair and tall Slowly rising to loftier height, It came to a crevice in the wall Through which there shone a beam of light.
Onward it crept with added strength With never a thought of fear or pride, It followed the light through the crevice’s length And unfolded itself on the other side.
The light, the dew, the broadening view Were found the same as they were before, And it lost itself in beauties new, Breathing its fragrance more and more.
Shall claim of death cause us to grieve And make our courage faint and fall? Nay! Let us faith and hope receive - The rose still grows beyond the wall.
Scattering fragrance far and wide Just as it did in days of yore Just as it did on the other side, Just as it will forevermore. A.L. Frink
Dear Kitten and family - you are in our thoughts xxx
So so sad, i had the pleasure of knowing your husband through work, rarely did we agree on anything but he could always make me laugh! Your husband had a heart of gold, i have never known a man to talk so openly for the love of his wife and children. Everyone will miss him lots but will have lots of warm, funny memories of him. Kitten my thoughts are with you and your beautiful children at this sad sad time.
The sun came out this morning for the first time in a while and I think it must be Swordfish making his presence felt. He will always be here because he had the capacity to create such affection amongst people even though so many of them, such as me, he never met. What a rare talent and what a community he created.
I hope time is kind to you Kitten, to your little ones and all of Swordfish's family. This man will never be forgotten.
Dear Rump, I have many warm and fond memories of conversations with you in my early days of iii and sadly, without even knowing that you were suffering :(
I've just been exposed for the first time to the wonderful/tragic blog that both yourself and Kitten have been beautifully recording and it's had me blubbing like a baby. I'll read the whole blog when I feel strong enough, but just reading 'February' has opened so many raw nerves, that I now need a vino break.
Much respect to you Rump, travel well, enjoy your journey and RIP. xxx
Kitten, wishing you, the children and family, much strength at this goddam awful time!! xxx
Thank you Rump and Kitten for your inspiration!! xxx
Farewell swordfish. I've lost count of the number of years we have worked together, enough to say that you are & will be sorely missed. You have been tremendously brave over the last 12 months and managed to keep that indomitable spirit of yours going to the end - a lesson to us all. Kitten - our love to you and the children at this sad time. Thinking of you all... Jules (J,J,R&O)
Kitten, I have been a silent reader through the last month or two of Swordfish's and your ordeal, I can't say enough to even touch how we all must feel about your loss. My love goes out to you. Take care.
Have been away and just heard the news. So, so sorry to hear the news. Pleased he slipped away peacefully. How brave you have all been. Good night and god bless Finance Director (BARC board)
Hard to express words on how I felt when I heard the news; even though I have not seen him for some time, sadly I was not even aware of the illness until an old work colleague told me the terrible news. Having been through this sadness myself (with my father) I know there are no words that can be said to make things better, but I always remember being welcomed as a working colleague by this lovely man when I first began my time in IT. I only hope that should I ever be in the same position that I can show the same level of fighting spirit, a true example to us all! Rest in piece and god be with you!
I post the final list of iii admirers of Rumps from Barc BB who will miss his presence and who wish strength and prayers to Kitten and the "little ones" - 140 flags in all!
All these people flagged my post up but I respect the fact that the "Flags" are not aimed at me but are aimed in support of Rumps who will be so sadly missed from this BB and so I deflect these flags to him.
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Kitten - I feel for the "little ones" as I have been there albeit fifty years ago. I lost my father to TB and still remember the feeling of loss. Wish there were more I could do to share your grief and thereby dilute it but I am aware that this is not possible.
I want to say how proud I am of my dear nephew "Swordfish". He was extremely brave throughout his ordeal. I would also like to thank "Kitten" for caring for him, she did a tremendous job. I have fond memories of Swordfish when he was growing up in South Wales. I expect he is now with Nan and Grandad being his usual cheeky chappy self. Lets hope Nan doesn't still possess the "boiler stick" that she threatened us with many a time for being cheeky. All my love forever until we meet again Swordfish.
Dear Kitten Thank you for the loving care throughout this last year to our dearly loved nephew Swordfish .He was so courageous and always surrounded with so much love and support from you Kitten . He left us a with two beautiful children within the family and we think of you all at this sad time . We are both left with hilarious and fond memories .
So very very sad to hear your news and our thoughts are with you and your family at this difficult time. We send our deepest sympathies. Be strong and remember all the wonderful times you shared.
Love & hugs to you and the children. Ann & Gary xxxx
Hi Kitten Just to let you know that I am thinking of you and hope that you are coping. I know that you will have the arms of your family and wonderful friends around you. No doubt when you read this blog you will have tears running down your face but you should also be very proud that your love and strength never wavered. You held him close when things got rough and though you are apart you will see him again. Love never dies. Changeling x
Kitten Rumps was a poster for whom I had great respect. The manner in which he set out his thoughts in this blog has been deeply moving. I know I'm just an anonymous poster, but his humanity and humility touched my life. Wishing you strength. El Kel (iii)
RIP Rumps
ReplyDeleteYour strength throughout this ordeal has been an inspiration. How ever hard it must be I feel you are and will remain a true source of inspiration for many including your closest loved ones.
Tas
Our thoughts are with you and your family
ReplyDeleteDS from the Barc. crowd
So sorry to hear. I have been following your ordeal for a while. This blog has been inspirational and is a credit to both of you.
ReplyDeleteBest wished to you and your famil
Michael (from the BARC BB
Kitten, our thoughts are with you and the children. Just gone to another room so he has.
ReplyDeleteI wish for you the opportunity to grieve and the strength to move on in your own way in the fullness of time. The last thing we get to do on this earth is to have a good end - and I know how it is to watch somebody pass. Respect and strength to you. You and the bairns will be in my prayers. Jaytour...Barc board
It's pointless to even try construct words which could do justice to the man I came to know so well, but important to also register my mark of respect on this sad day.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts and prayers are with you all.
Jayo.
Swordfish, the dear man is at peace now,he fought a good fight, God rest his soul.
ReplyDeleteI pray that God will be especially close to you Kitten, the children, his mum and dad and all his family and friends.
I never knew him, but he became part of the daily life, I will never forget his strength of character, he earned his respect.
Of course Kitten you must be so sad, but my goodness no wife could have done more.
Your love for each other shone through this blog,
it was immeasureable.
Respectfully,
God bless you and yours.
MA
Heartbreaking post, you are all very much in our thoughts - sending big hugs and much love xx
ReplyDeleteWPFC U7s friends
rumps is and will always be an inspiration to me on how to live life. his strength of character, will, humour and outlook on life defined him to be the great man that he is. am very sorry to hear the sad news, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
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From an anonymous poster on the Barc bb, all our thoughts are with your family at such a time.
ReplyDeleteWhilst never met, your words showed your strength and courage. Farewell Rumps. Gods speed on your journey.
Karlin
My condolences to the family.
ReplyDeleteRumps will be missed.
Regards,
HappyGoLucky72
Rumps was a great guy. We will miss him even though many of us never met him in person. Our thoughts are with you and the whole family at this most difficult time.
ReplyDeleteShed (iii BB)
Yes, heartbreaking indeed - sometimes it is harder for those around the disease.....I wish you all the strength in the world - and would like to add that in my experience there will always surface some positives from these sorts of tragedies in time - you just wait and see.
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ReplyDeleteGoodbye Swordfish
ReplyDeleteThis is such a sad moment, I never met any of you, but I am filled with immense admiration and respect for you both.
I feel so sad its the post I have been dreading.
Swordfish is at peace now and he could not have had anymore love and support than you have given him.
You must be totally heartbroken. Its the toughest thing to face up to isnt it.
Please take care of yourself, and now your children will need you more than ever.
My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
Once more Goodbye Swordfish.
Love Sue x
Rumps and family.
ReplyDeleteNever met you but feel I know a little about you all,from reading rump's posts and from this inspiring blog.
Rumps was indeed a smashing bloke and spoke with great wisdom and respect.
Rest in peace rumps and my best wishes and condolences to your family.
teago
Both yourself and Swordfish are a wonderful inspiration to us all.
ReplyDeleteI never had the pleasure of meeting the man but enjoyed reading his every word in better times.
My condolences to you all.
Hill
sad to hear kitten, thoughts are with you and the children.
ReplyDeletehe is at peace now in no pain and torment, RIP rumps you will be missed by many.
it is a painful time for you all now, but your love will get you through this
god bless
smurf1955
from the barc board
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx coatred
ReplyDeleteKitten, I think you've been so brave, and I know how hard it will be for you having to carry on being strong for the little ones. I hope you can find some comfort in all the warmth and affection that so many of us felt for all of you through knowing Swordfish on the barc BB. You and the children must be so proud of him.
ReplyDeleteGoodbye, Swordfish. We won't forget you...
Cate
No words can express my deep deep sadness for you and the Children. I am sitting here lost for words darling, my heart absolutely breaks for you guys. I have so many fun memories of your gorgeous hubbie, who was always the life and soul of any night out with his stories and tales. I am devastated for you, you two were soulmates and he loved you so so so enoromously much...you were and are his world. Sending a huge hug to you Swordfish and all the love to you and the Children Kitten. All my love in the world Kirsty xxxxx
ReplyDeleteHow Green his valley was then
ReplyDeleteThis greatly admired and loved man
Who once breathed fiery passion for life
Until the day his vigour was spent
And natures mighty reign wept
Extinguishing his blistering flame
And enveloped with peace all of his pain.....
How Green his valley is now
Elixir flowing through his veins
Paradise now his destination
Heavenly tenderness his for eternity
God bless you all Lou & Stu xxx
Kitten
ReplyDeleteso sorry to hear your sad news. Our thoughts go out to you, your childrenand his parents. xxx
At times like this words are meaningless.
ReplyDeleteHowevee it always seems best to not fight the dark but make the little shine that much brighter.
Swordfish's memory and I suppose his everlasting legacy is that light and will hopefully be an immense source of comfort to his family at this time.
Au revoir Swordfish, you where and will always be a source of strength to all who knew you.
(EOT) from the Barc and III BB
lost for words.
ReplyDeleteeven though the end was apparent, its still a shock when it comes.
thinking of you and yours at this difficult time.
He'll be in a better place now.
much love and respect.
Obmil.
What can I say. You are a very strong, brave woman and you have been a huge support to him throughout this past year. An inspiration to everyone. I cannot express how sad I am for you and the children and for his whole family. I truly wish I could have met him - he made you so happy. You and your children are in my thoughts. Condolences
ReplyDeleteChris, Ian and family xxxxx
A very sad post - Rumps was a truly inspirational character, a man I have grown to deeply respect even though we had not met physically.
ReplyDeleteMy upmost respect to you also kitten, in spite of much adversity you have kept it all together. Continue to be strong for the kids.
You are all very much in my thoughts.
Mick (Mugger)
So sorry to hear that Rumps has passed away. I can't tell you how much he made a difference to me on the Barc bb and inspired me through this blog.
ReplyDeleteThe fact that he so touched the lives of many people is testament to his character, there are few who so effortlessly command such respect and admiration.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones at this time.
Fox
I will miss you more than words can say and the pain of you not being here is going to hurt for a long time but I know you will be watching over your loved ones and I will see you again on the space terrace of heaven.
ReplyDeleteSad news indeed,maybe more of us can be inspired by this mans integrity and ability to deal with situations head on in a dignified manner.I never met rumps but wish I had. I dont really have the words to do the man justice.
ReplyDeletevtecgrin (barc board)
Oh Kitten
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry he tried so hard to stay with you and his family.
It all seems so cruel and so wasteful to take someone who had so much more to offer. Whoever said life isn't fair couldn't have said a truer word.
Although I, like many others here only knew him via the BB his personality leached out without him knowing it and we all saw this fair, clever man who always had time to explain the point he was making.
Through his writing of this blog I saw yet another side of him, a graceful, sensitive man and oh how he loved you all.
Never ever forget that Kitten
I will shed many a tear for you tonight
Sleep well Rumps
Changeling xx
Kitten and family,
ReplyDeleteRumps AKA swordfish has inspired me and others in so many ways. We have all followed his difficult journey here on his blog.
may he rest in peace
gl for the future
stm (iii)
Kitten
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing I can say, you, and Rumps have been an inspiration. You,your family and Rumps are in our thoughts at this very sad time. XX
Paul and Paula (Paul the Banker)
Rumps and family
ReplyDeleteWas thinking of you today during a coastal walk. An inspiration and thank you all so much for sharing this journey.
May the wind always be on your back and the sun on your face and may the winds of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars.
so sorry kitten x
ReplyDeletejulie (Barc B)
Reading through this blog and seeing all the heartfelt comments from people who had never met Swordfish before made me very lucky to have known him. To those of us who did know him, we were all touched in our own way by his charisma. Kitten, you and the kids are in my thoughts and we will always be there for you all.
ReplyDeleteI'm going to miss you Monks, I'm going to miss all the hilarious banter we had, the great nights out until silly o'clock in the morning and then me having to explain to Kitten it was my fault for keeping you out!
I will rave on in your memory, I can imagine you're up there on a cloud right now doing your Wonder Woman dance whilst waiting to get on the decks to drop the last tune of the night by Degrees of Motion..."Shine on, let the light of your love grow stronger.
You've got to shine on,
You're the sun in my heart,
A flame in the dark,
So let the light of love shine on"
Those lyrics say it all about you...this is not goodbye, it's a see you later mate, bless.
Super Frank x
Rumps and family
ReplyDeleteWas thinking of you today during a coastal walk. An inspiration and thank you all so much for sharing this journey.
May the wind always be on your back and the sun on your face and may the winds of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars.
Johnny No Techs - BARC Board
JNT
On the shoulders of giants. He and his family have inspired me.
ReplyDeletefraserboy - Barc Board
Kitten,
ReplyDeletePlease accept my condolences. I am thinking of you and your family. I am so sorry.
Pete (jalopeno iiibb)
Kitten
ReplyDeleteI am very sad to read this post. My deepest sympathy, love and thoughts to you, Boogle, Hufty and your extended family.
You and Swordfish have been an inspriation to us.
You should have our number on the famiy sheet that was distributed at the beginning of the season. Please don't hesitate to call if there is anything I can do.
Love
J, R, W, M (aka Speedy) WPFC U7's xxxx
My sincere condolences to you and your children. Rumps was clearly a determined, upbeat and strong gentleman. I too have two young children and can not imagine what you are going through. You are no doubt very proud of the courage and strength Rumps
ReplyDeletehas shown, it puts many to shame. It has made me think long and hard in recent times about my own priorities, it's easy to get them so wrong and forget what really matters.
Stay strong and Rumps memory will live on. My deepest sympathy to your family and friends.
GoMad (iii)
Kitten,
ReplyDeleteI don't know what to say.
I am so sorry
I wish I had got to know Swordfish better and had known him for longer.
What I do know is that during our saturday morning chats when our boys played football i have never enjoyed myself more.
We would discuss many subjects.We rarely agreed BUT the verbal jousting was great fun.
He would end the football session by saying what the family would be doing over the weekend.He loved you and the kids so much...and he knew how much you loved him.
He will be sorely missed but never forgotten.He will be remembered with a smile or a laugh. How special is that? He and you have many friends as well as family who will help you to find strength in any way they can.
Love Mark and family xo
Hi Kitten
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to add this quick note, I'm sure you've thought about it already but don't ever lose this blog will you (I say this as a total non techie who doesn't know how these things work). In later years the children may want to read it and I think that if they do they will be so proud of their dad.
This blog gives an amazing insight of Swordfishes strength of character, his grace in the face of overwhelming odds and his love for his family.
I think they will also be proud that the man they have the privilege to call Dad has moved so many people and made them re examine what in life the really important things are.
I have said this as I struggle to convey to my sister's children now they are older how wonderful she was and how I wish I had something like this to show them
Changeling x
Farewell my old friend and thank you for touching my life. The world is a poorer place, although many more lives will now be touched by yours. Our deepest sympathies go to Kitten and the Swordfish clan. We are here if you need anything. With Love From Ibanez & Family
ReplyDeleteRIP Rumps.
ReplyDeleteKItten, our thoughts are with you and the kids!
georgeolboy and family
I was very fortunate enough to have known Swordfish for a couple of years a while ago before I moved away, not very well, but who could ever forget the man who had a personality larger than life, was so entertaining and was an inspiration as far as living life to the full and maximizing fun was concerned. I feel heartbroken for Kitten and the children as your sense of loss must be unbearable. I wish you all the strength and courage in the world to get through the next stage of life knowing that Swordfish is watching over you and that you will all see each other again.
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Goodbye Swordfish, its been a pleasure to be friends with you these past ten years working together. I've long admired your willingness to tackle things head on, to voice your opinion, to always try to do what was right. Of course we once sat opposite each other and the opinions (about just about anything) flowed back and forth across the desks. What a great time mate, we put several worlds to rights didn't we? I miss your insight and wisdom at work already but most of all I miss the jokes, the silliness, and laughter. So many memories and little stories that will always bring a smile to me.
ReplyDeleteKitten, my thoughts are with you. My deepest sympathy to you, the children and all the family.
God bless.
Love
Sam The Eagle x
Copied from iii Barc Bulletin Board
ReplyDeleteRIP Rumps Oldiethesecond 110
Voters and their ratings stopthismadness BlueTrin mike21el BuyemSellem CigarRay Damp Seaweed Sinbab Katie Holmes RedTriangle HappyGoLucky72 RigelBB BarCap Pappiklon flow33 meisterx Doorstops rock and a hard place Duke of Bedlington Asudo RI207 La Mome Wall St Failure Abraham Lincoln storfs inoutupdown dragonsbreaths illbetabuck PrivatePunter Ole Devil teago Blue Horseshoe loves chip fat Night Sight 111 loubac The Referee WarlockWilliams blackfriar Air Vice-Marshal hill-47 karlinjersey El Kel smurf1955 md rod quadcore LK Hyman secretsqu MonkeyMagik i WISH i WAS i orsotoro tradesmarter pat0204 vtecgrin Jackozy annes goal Mugger Krypteia PC Fox carillion rdb1979 Lowema 9erfan johnknox3 Triple Witcher IndyInv magoo100 Johnc77 not-just-anytradr madmaxx Mike-in-Paris kitsch Elena Saratov Rags 2 Rags imperator2008 ajhorne AdeMcG phillyjackson pj66 Surf-Noodle Deepcut Mextor jalopeno sharon P Cook blackback GrizzlyBull cash_in medic100 deadcatb0unce the-mong filenotfound followNev Redstone09 cinderbella BOBBY DOT COM changeling Ilovescotch themims per ardua ad astra Harryarora Perfect Max mogz67 the greedies georgeolboy J Hitchman jackdawsson ferengi79 crossed digits oakwood1 Sorcerers Apprentice boom_or _bust efernan3 aertimus22
Sad to have reached this point
Sympathies to all family & friends
http://thebookofsilence.blogspot.com/
"O"
End of iii Barc Post
I just happened to be the first to report of Rumps departure to a better place on the iii Bulletin Board. I do not deserve all the "up" flags (110) that my post produced and is still producing, all listed above. They were not aimed at me and so I pass them on to their rightful owner - Rumps hopefully to show some of the strenght of feeling towards him on the iii boards.
The world is a far better place for having Rumps (Swordfish)'s presence and his footprint will remain on this Earth for very many years to come via the inspiration and strength of character that he has passed on to others that he has touched throughout his life. I regret that I have never met nor spoken to Rumps but I, like many others, feel that we knew him well through the style of his posts and, lately, this blog.
RIP Rumps
Strength to those closest to him - He will certainly be missed.
Oldiethesecond
My most sincere condolences.
ReplyDeleteI cannot think of words to express how Rumps had such a good influence and was one of the most respected person on the Barc bb and how he will be missed by many.
Rest in peace Rumps.
Tony (BlueTrin on the Barc bb)
Rest in Peace Rumps
ReplyDeleteGood Night and God Bless X
Lukeoleo...(iii poster)
What words can do justice on such a very sad occasion, I'm sure I don't know. Other than, first & foremost my thoughts are with Rumps, his dear family & friends.
ReplyDeleteFor the rest: like many others on iii BBs, I've learned a lot about trading, & much more besides from the great man, I know I'll never forget him. He was the very best. I told him so even before the cancer was known, because I meant it.
So as I thanked him before (not that it's any consolation now), I thank him one last time. You'll always have my deep & heartfelt respect, Rumps. Truly a top man! May you RIP!
Kitten
ReplyDeleteI only knew Rumps/Swordfish as a contributor of wisdom, humour, peace and understanding on the iii bulletin boards. More recently, I have been drawn to this blog for the immense humility and courage which you have both shown.
You have shouldered a heavy burden, and it won't get any lighter any time soon. Be sure to let friends and family support you in whatever small ways they can, and give yourself and the kids the space you need to grieve, to cherish, and to love the marvellous man you have lost today.
Deepest sympathies to you
Mark (Jazz Club, iii)
Hey Mr DJ!
ReplyDeleteI never knew that side of you Rumps, but having read Super Frank's message and being a 90's groover myself I certainly wish I had. Some old tunes are being played tonight!
Be assured that your light will shine on; even for people like me who never met you in person but were fortunate enough to have known you in the cybershere.
With your stength, courage and honesty you've demonstrated just how bright a light you always will be for those blessed to have known you. Your integrity is truly an example to us all.
May your spirit be at peace.
Kitten, my heart goes out to you, Boogle and Huffty. Your Swordfish was a very special man (evinced by all the tributes in this blog) and your loss must be so profound. I wish the three of you and all who loved him the strength, resilience and fortitude to cope as well as you can at this most incredibly sad time.
May you be comforted by knowing that the thoughts of so many are with you.
per ardua ad astra
I never got to know you Rumps but found you via the iii Barclays forum and it is clear you were very well thought of. I was diagnosed with a Lymphoma some 6 years ago at the age of 32 and so I can imagine a part of the journey and the many things that go through your head during this awful time. All I can say is that I am sorry I didn't get to chat with you, and I wish all of your family the best in dealing with your sad loss.
ReplyDeleteRIP
Alex
Kitten
ReplyDeleteA great loss, a great man, taken far too soon.
May a better place now hold the faithful departed.
TwistedMachine (iii Barc board)
RIP Rumps..
ReplyDeleteMy condolences to your family.
Gutted .....
Near shady wall a rose once grew
ReplyDeleteBudded and blossomed in God’s free light,
Watered and fed by morning dew,
Shedding its sweetness day and night.
As it grew and blossomed fair and tall
Slowly rising to loftier height,
It came to a crevice in the wall
Through which there shone a beam of light.
Onward it crept with added strength
With never a thought of fear or pride,
It followed the light through the crevice’s length
And unfolded itself on the other side.
The light, the dew, the broadening view
Were found the same as they were before,
And it lost itself in beauties new,
Breathing its fragrance more and more.
Shall claim of death cause us to grieve
And make our courage faint and fall?
Nay! Let us faith and hope receive -
The rose still grows beyond the wall.
Scattering fragrance far and wide
Just as it did in days of yore
Just as it did on the other side,
Just as it will forevermore. A.L. Frink
Dear Kitten and family - you are in our thoughts xxx
So so sad, i had the pleasure of knowing your husband through work, rarely did we agree on anything but he could always make me laugh!
ReplyDeleteYour husband had a heart of gold, i have never known a man to talk so openly for the love of his wife and children. Everyone will miss him lots but will have lots of warm, funny memories of him. Kitten my thoughts are with you and your beautiful children at this sad sad time.
God Bless.
Rest in peace mate.
Chan x
The sun came out this morning for the first time in a while and I think it must be Swordfish making his presence felt. He will always be here because he had the capacity to create such affection amongst people even though so many of them, such as me, he never met. What a rare talent and what a community he created.
ReplyDeleteI hope time is kind to you Kitten, to your little ones and all of Swordfish's family. This man will never be forgotten.
Diana
x
I have just read this terrible news, I am shocked. I exchanged views with Rumps on the Barc BB but have not contributed much lately.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts go out to his family, he will be sadly missed by many.
Circ.
Dear Rump, I have many warm and fond memories of conversations with you in my early days of iii and sadly, without even knowing that you were suffering :(
ReplyDeleteI've just been exposed for the first time to the wonderful/tragic blog that both yourself and Kitten have been beautifully recording and it's had me blubbing like a baby. I'll read the whole blog when I feel strong enough, but just reading 'February' has opened so many raw nerves, that I now need a vino break.
Much respect to you Rump, travel well, enjoy your journey and RIP. xxx
Kitten, wishing you, the children and family, much strength at this goddam awful time!! xxx
Thank you Rump and Kitten for your inspiration!! xxx
Bomber64 :((
Farewell swordfish. I've lost count of the number of years we have worked together, enough to say that you are & will be sorely missed. You have been tremendously brave over the last 12 months and managed to keep that indomitable spirit of yours going to the end - a lesson to us all.
ReplyDeleteKitten - our love to you and the children at this sad time. Thinking of you all...
Jules (J,J,R&O)
Kitten, I have been a silent reader through the last month or two of Swordfish's and your ordeal, I can't say enough to even touch how we all must feel about your loss.
ReplyDeleteMy love goes out to you.
Take care.
Dina
Have been away and just heard the news.
ReplyDeleteSo, so sorry to hear the news. Pleased he slipped away peacefully. How brave you have all been.
Good night and god bless
Finance Director (BARC board)
Hard to express words on how I felt when I heard the news; even though I have not seen him for some time, sadly I was not even aware of the illness until an old work colleague told me the terrible news. Having been through this sadness myself (with my father) I know there are no words that can be said to make things better, but I always remember being welcomed as a working colleague by this lovely man when I first began my time in IT. I only hope that should I ever be in the same position that I can show the same level of fighting spirit, a true example to us all! Rest in piece and god be with you!
ReplyDeleteI post the final list of iii admirers of Rumps from Barc BB who will miss his presence and who wish strength and prayers to Kitten and the "little ones" - 140 flags in all!
ReplyDeleteAll these people flagged my post up but I respect the fact that the "Flags" are not aimed at me but are aimed in support of Rumps who will be so sadly missed from this BB and so I deflect these flags to him.
Voters and their ratings:- stopthismadness BlueTrin mike21el BuyemSellem CigarRay Damp Seaweed Sinbab Katie Holmes RedTriangle HappyGoLucky72 RigelBB BarCap Pappiklon flow33 meisterx Doorstops rock and a hard place Duke of Bedlington Asudo RI207 La Mome Wall St Failure Abraham Lincoln storfs inoutupdown dragonsbreaths illbetabuck PrivatePunter Ole Devil teago Blue Horseshoe loves chip fat Night Sight 111 loubac The Referee WarlockWilliams blackfriar Air Vice-Marshal hill-47 karlinjersey El Kel smurf1955 md rod quadcore LK Hyman secretsqu MonkeyMagik i WISH i WAS i orsotoro tradesmarter pat0204 vtecgrin Jackozy annes goal Mugger Krypteia PC Fox carillion rdb1979 Lowema 9erfan johnknox3 Triple Witcher IndyInv magoo100 Johnc77 not-just-anytradr madmaxx Mike-in-Paris kitsch Elena Saratov Rags 2 Rags imperator2008 ajhorne AdeMcG phillyjackson pj66 Surf-Noodle Deepcut Mextor jalopeno sharon P Cook blackback GrizzlyBull cash_in medic100 deadcatb0unce the-mong filenotfound followNev Redstone09 cinderbella BOBBY DOT COM changeling Ilovescotch themims per ardua ad astra Harryarora Perfect Max mogz67 the greedies georgeolboy J Hitchman jackdawsson ferengi79 crossed digits oakwood1 Sorcerers Apprentice boom_or _bust efernan3 aertimus22 Xman_999 Mondo Stigg MHughB scooby_2 lucytan Sir Buns-Up Knealing Captain Prozac fireflame2000 lukeoleo Making It Happen shanelidd CatcheeMonkee Ladder Rack stowfox The_Apprentice exoilman KyInvest shed-o-vision midnight rambler52 magpie75 bomber64 el_bow edward3 Stevo999 i-i-i Mewsmuse circuitous moorlaner finance director telem
Kitten - I feel for the "little ones" as I have been there albeit fifty years ago. I lost my father to TB and still remember the feeling of loss. Wish there were more I could do to share your grief and thereby dilute it but I am aware that this is not possible.
Strength to all of you!
All my best wishes
Oldiethesecond
Kitten
ReplyDeletePlease accept our most heartfelt sympathies for your loss. Our thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time.
xx
I want to say how proud I am of my dear nephew "Swordfish". He was extremely brave throughout his ordeal. I would also like to thank "Kitten" for caring for him, she did a tremendous job. I have fond memories of Swordfish when he was growing up in South Wales. I expect he is now with Nan and Grandad being his usual cheeky chappy self. Lets hope Nan doesn't still possess the "boiler stick" that she threatened us with many a time for being cheeky. All my love forever until we meet again Swordfish.
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XXX
Dear Kitten
ReplyDeleteThank you for the loving care throughout this last year to our dearly loved nephew Swordfish .He was so courageous and always surrounded with so much love and support from you Kitten . He left us a with two beautiful children within the family and we think of you all at this sad time . We are both left with hilarious and fond memories .
WITH OUR LOVE Mr and Mrs Butcher
xxxxxxxx
So very very sad to hear your news and our thoughts are with you and your family at this difficult time. We send our deepest sympathies. Be strong and remember all the wonderful times you shared.
ReplyDeleteLove & hugs to you and the children.
Ann & Gary xxxx
dedicated to rumps
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cADItSvORwo&feature=youtu.be
RIP
smurf1955
from the barc board
Hi Kitten
ReplyDeleteJust to let you know that I am thinking of you and hope that you are coping. I know that you will have the arms of your family and wonderful friends around you.
No doubt when you read this blog you will have tears running down your face but you should also be very proud that your love and strength never wavered. You held him close when things got rough and though you are apart you will see him again.
Love never dies.
Changeling x
Kitten,
ReplyDeleteYou should know that we're all still here, all the unknowns, making wishes for you and trying in some small way to support you during this time.
What you and Swordfish built we will continue for as long as you want.
Diana
Kitten
ReplyDeleteRumps was a poster for whom I had great respect.
The manner in which he set out his thoughts in this blog has been deeply moving.
I know I'm just an anonymous poster, but his humanity and humility touched my life.
Wishing you strength.
El Kel (iii)
♥️
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