In my first ever post on the blog I wrote
Just as this condition developed by stealth I expect to have to find a strong centre of inner peace - "emotional silence".
In respect of the disease I am pretty much there. I don't have any expectations about the results of the scan on Monday, I just have an open mind and a willingness to deal with the situation whether good, bad or indifferent.
In these situations the most difficult thing is not to deal with yourself but those around you. Bad news obviously isn't going to travel well with those close to me and it will obviously be a big wrench if it is said at that treatment can only be palliative from this point forward.
I have said that the past few months have been difficult but that all fades away in the light of good news. This period has been one which is worth enduring to achieve success but is not a way that anyone would want to live for an extended period of time, simply because it impinges so heavily on your general ability to enjoy anything.
So, once again, I am neither optimistic nor pessimistic but I am hopeful, clear minded and focused.
If I come through then I am not sure what I can allow myself by way of celebration, but a big smile will be top of my list.
Mate
ReplyDeleteI was thinking about you earlier whilst watching our beloved rugby team getting narrowly beaten by the South Africans.
Had many good weekends in Cardiff watching the rugby with you and kitten and no doubt, once you have gotten through this we'll be back there, once more...... "singing hymns and arias, land of my fathers, ar hyd y nos."
Fingers crossed for Monday.
best wishes
D
Yes D, let's be honest we threw it away AGAIN.
ReplyDeleteWe really need to nail these games and stop giving away soft penalties that allow them to get a foothold and confidence.
Thanks for the best wishes and hope that everything is going well.
R - Don't forget to question, if it really comes down to it:
ReplyDelete'What are the other options; by that, I mean non-NHS funded?'
I will be thinking of you on Monday afternoon.
Best wishes,
Rigel
Rigel,
ReplyDeleteno stone will be left unturned!
Hopefully, it won't come to that though and I can hope for a trip down to theatre soon.
"There may be trouble ahead :-)"