Since yesterday I have had a lot of pain which trying to eat. The pain is there all the time and is a product of the radiotherapy, but is only a problem when I eat.
I have been taking oral morphine to try and abate it but it doesn't even begin to touch it. I will be taking it consistently for a while so that it has an opportunity to work within the system but I am now concerned that I am not getting enough calories in. When I do get the calories in I am not able to keep them in, so this is not a good situation.
This should only be a temporary state of affairs whilst the inflammation from the treatment persists so I may consider the final avenue that is open to me, which is to have a feed line attached to take nutrition intravenously. This is something that may happen post operation anyway and it would only be for a short while.
I keep on pushing and it is on terrain like this where I fight hard to assert myself.
Not the most uplifting of facts, I know, but it is character building having to fight against the pain with each small mouthful when you are supposed to be consuming 3-4000 calories a day!
On a general note I feel pretty much OK other than this obvious hinderance.
Aladdin wants to know "do you want to share the morphine"!
ReplyDeleteTell him "morphine a go go" followed by video games on your huge TV.
ReplyDeleteWho knows we could both be sucked in through the screen by the TV monster.
Must dash as I have to "jack up". Erm sorry I meant self-administer another dose :-)